I'm so tired

I am exhausted after a long weekend of horse back riding. We had a show on Saturday and Vegas and Harley were total idiots. The one class that i did get him under control we won second but the rest of the time he just had attitude. What made it bad was that we brought Rachel and Darlene to their first show and I spent the entire time schooling Vegas. Then on Sunday we went on a poker ride and was really fun. It was the first trail ride Vegas has ever been on and he did over all very good. He crossed water for the first time The first patch he just completely jumped it, it was so funny. The second time it was to big to jump so he went thru it as fast as he could with his knees as high as he could get them. It was good fun but I am so sore and tired. It got me and my mom excited for our ride and tie.

Then my mom and chris went to Mark 5 for dinner and had lots of food and two good martinis. Went to Chris's house and watched the VMA's (which were totally boring) and then fell asleep by 10 .

Wow Its been a long time.

Well I haven't blogged in a long time for a number of reasons. 1 Norton was blocking me from logging into anything but myspace. 2. I am lazy and forgot to. But lets get caught up. This summer has been really really good (for the most part). Steph came to visit at the end of may and we had a blast. In july I went to Viva Las Vegas and met katie, tessa and katies friend Kristen and we has so much fun and laughed so hard it was great. And i had one of the best birthdays i have had in years. I went to a horse show with vegas and he was fantastic. We placed in every class but besides that he had such great manors. Chris went with me and we was a good horse show boyfriend. He got me a digital photo frame which i still haven't used yet.

I started giving Tessa's sister lessons on monday its exciting to see someone excited about learning to ride. School sports are great for kids and everything but there is just nothing like horses. My mom and I are starting a new adventure of running. We are doing what they call a Ride & Tie. Its ten mile 2 person 1 horse team. Basically, you spend half the time on horse back half the time running and you alternate with your partner. I am really excited I think I need to do more things outside and I bought a book about running a marathon. I would really like to try and do that. We will see though.

Haven't been staying in my apartment at all lately. I hate it there! After nine months Alysse is finally trying and I feel like to little to late. Like all of a sudden after all the shit that has been broken in my house the gross smells the stain on my new chair I am suppose to get excited. It only helps to that Derek lives next door and he is in my house before I am even there after work. PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF! I just want to go away for like 2 weeks be by myself and think or not think about anything. I just feel like I give a lot and don't get much in return in almost all aspects in my life. I hate it.

I do have a lot of great things in my life and am grateful for them i am just going through a transition faze. Just keep swimming!

The sun is out and I am in a good mood for a Monday!!

So things seem to be very good today. My sister and I seem to be OK again she just started talking to me and brought me the money for utilities for may. So i am assuming she isn't moving out which makes me happy i have gotten use to her being there.

Today is Cinco De Mayo and I really want to go and have margaritas somewhere and eat tons of chips and salsa. But I need to be saving money for stephs visit and am trying to be good. But it is very hard to do. Also, I have been a big slacker with Vegas lately and need to give him more of my time so from now on Mon. Tues. wed . Fri. and Sunday are Vegas days. My dad is gracious enough to pay for his board and I need to take advantage of that.

But let me tell you about the great thing I want to start doing with my friends. DRUNK KICKBALL!! How fun does that sound? LIKE A LOT!! I just think that would be great and so far have got a pretty good response to the idea. i only have like 5 friends in town but they all seem to be down. I can't wait hopefully we can get a game as early as this weekend.

Did the North Barrel tour on Saturday which was a lot of fun. Typically I am not a fan of anything that makes you wake up on a day off earlier than 9 but it was a great time and Chris's friends Steve and Jess got to go and they were fun. But what is the deal with everyone making such a deal out of Chris and I not being married or on the fast track to baby town. Were happy and at some point perhaps those things will be important to the both of us. But that's between him and myself. I just hate it when people make comments like that. You could tell he got very uncomfortable as well and actually avoided me for a winery and a half. Which pisses me off bc I don't discuss Chris and My relationship to most people and my friends know better than to make comments like that. Its always his friends so don't get mad at me that your friends are disrespectful. Blah enough on that bc it will ruin my mood.

But today will be a good day.

First Blog. Lets see how this goes.

Well, I have never blogged before and I have horrible grammar and spelling so you are warned if you read this. I don't plan on really telling anyone about this. Mainly because I am embarrassed of my lack of skills in the writing department. Oh well.

So this weekend is Vegas and my first horse show!! His first show EVER and my first show in about 6 or 7 years! I mean I have shown in a few classes here and there but the last time I was serious about it was at least 6 years ago. I am very very nervous for a couple of reasons one because he is only five and could freak out and buck me off and two I just want him to do so good. He is such a good horse and has came so far that I just want people to see that side. But I know that he is young and I should expect him to act up some. He never really gives me too much trouble he just wants to socialize with everyone he doesn't completely understand yet that he has a job to do. But he will be the cutest one out there I am sure of that. He goes everywhere with his ears forward he is such a delight.

We will see 2 days and counting.